Going into 2018 with Continued Hope.

Going into 2018 with Continued Hope.

It’s 2018!!

Let me jump right into my thoughts on 2017 & what I see for 2018…

2017 is kind of a blur for me. A lot changed and I was challenged in ways I never even imagined. I lived in constant pain and depended on people more than I would of ever liked. I always prided myself on independence and good health. Both of those things were stripped away from me. I was taught it was okay to need people and be vulnerable. Two lessons I didn’t think I needed to be taught.

There was a lot of trials with some triumphs. I am going into 2018 with the continued hope that my health issues will improve. This year I want to take on challenges with grace and acceptance of my “normal”, New Year, New boundaries to be pushed and broken.

The past few years have been a true test of my strength. I was taught to listen to my body, put my needs first, and learned how to fight for myself.  I still can’t believe that I finally have some answers, I am [actually] doing better. I started to believe I would always live in intense pain. I am in no means cured but I have improved, I found a Doctor that took me seriously… I have a chance at living, not just being alive.

To say I was scared would be an understatement. I tried to stay positive but it wasn’t easy. Day after day I was battling this beast of a disease, Lupus is hell, Ehlers Danlos is hell, they both have additional symptoms that are crap (excuse my language this is my truth). Here’s the thing, although I am struggling I’ve never thought that this will be forever. I’ve fought like heck. I have made some improvements, and for that I am so thankful.

My issues aren’t gone. I’m still a work in progress I believe one day I’ll be back to doing all the stuff I use to, I  know most of my symptoms will subside… maybe I am being a fool, but I am a hopeful fool. Right now, I still can’t do much but I can do some, and that is better than doing nothing.

I am a blessed woman. There’s no other way to put it. I have a chance. 2018 is my year of improvement, I am going to grow, I am going to prosper, most of all I am going to live. I’ll be happy, I’ll struggle, I’ll accept, and I’ll love like crazy!

Happy New Year everyone!

 

 

***Written freehand with limited edits, Please be kind, Thank you***

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