I should take notes from my toddler. She is quite amazing. I’m not saying that just because she is my child, though I am in awe of her. She inspires me in a way I would of never expected a two year old to be able too. She is confident and fearlessly vocal. She knows her likes and dislikes, she demands love and gives it right back. She has a fierce independence with an I can figure anything out attitude. Yes, this is my little girl, my mighty two year old teaching me lessons of confidence and strength.
Maybe it’s her innocence, the world has gotten to her yet. I hope it never does, though I know it will. I guess I should say I hope the world helps her grow and she always holds on the her ability to be so full of life. She walks with a love for herself I never have witnessed before. Like this is who I am and I like me!
This isn’t to say raising a small child that is so vocally independent is easy. There’s plenty of battles. She is a demanding little girl and will let you know when she doesn’t like what is going on. For me, there is something amazingly beautiful about that. At times I want to pull my hair out but more often I appreciate the fact she doesn’t settle, I don’t want her to loose that.
Watching her has made me grow. I’ve taken a closer look at myself and realized I stuffed a lot of who I am down. I feared not being accepted or loved. One day I was explaining to my mom how my daughter was, through my exhaustion I was saying it was hard to keep up with her. I exclaimed “where does she get this boldness from!?” My mom looked at me a laughed. I was baffled, I looked at her confused. She simply said ” she’s just like you”. It was like a flash went through my head, I was able to remember all those “little” things I wouldn’t give in on as a child or how I never wanted anything done for me because I knew I could do it myself. In that glimpse of a moment I was jolted with appreciation, for myself… for my little girl.
I am blessed beyond anything I could imagine. My life is full of love, I get the chance to raise two precious boys and a little girl. She is a tough, beautiful, fearless, independent, caring, and I will continue to encourage her tenacity to go after what she wants. I refuse to put limits on her or make her feel like it’s not okay to be bold. I will teach her boundaries, respect, and love. She is the strongest little lady I have ever known, she has taught me more about myself then I could have ever learned from years of soul searching. I am thankful for her love but most of all I appreciate her for exactly who she is. In a crazy wonderful way I love and appreciate myself now too.
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